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Things are looking up. Funny how that works. I make an effort, and look at the consequences. Things were seeming boring and down, but now things are more exciting.

It all started with me wanting to go to John Digweed. I really couldn't afford it, but I went anyways. I realized that many things cost, and it hurts you in one form or another to do, but it is so totally worth it. The concert was amazing. We even met John Digweed. Incredible.

Recently, I bought a soccer ball. I've been getting quite a bit of use out of it, and that makes me happy. I'm already feeling more competent, physically and emotionally. It's even spilling over to Josh. He's been in a much better mood lately, and he's been trying new things, and spreading his wings. I'm glad.

And now, I'm planning to go to Desperation and a BT show in the same week. It's going to be a financial stretch, but it's going to be oh-so-awesome.

Anyways, things are looking up. New Life is going to rock.

Sit down and count to 50. It's liberating.

JunkieXL - Honey

I feel that there are not enough hours in the day. I know many people say that. Let me give you my reasoning. When I get off work, it seems that most of the day is over, and that makes my heart slightly heavier. You see, one of the things I love to see when I'm working is people who have the day off, and are just in to shop. I would give many things to just get up early, and go shop. Even if I did not buy anything, the ability to get up in the morning, grab some breakfast and head to some shops just to look around (especially under the company of a loved one) would be a well-appreciated development to my life.

I am making a pact with myself. I have Wednesday off. I am going to get up early, and go do things. Something fun. Something to get me out of the house. Something to live a little life.

I know I'm going places, but there's so much to be done now. I enjoy times where I get to get Ice Cream in the relatively warm evening light and times when I can simply sit and chat with people. Just hanging out. I miss that about college. ORU specifically.

I am going to go do something. Enough talk. More rock, less talk.

We Become One.

Manic Star [feat. Marie-Claire D'Ubaldo]

It interests me, how life seems to keep you jumping from stone-to-stone, and never standing still. The immediate example is music, for me at least. I keep trying to write music, and it seems that for every six months that I attempt a musical creation, one month is spent actually doing so, and the remaining five months are merely stressfull failures one after another. I have a music folder, with all of my music in it that I've attempted to create recently, and out of all the files, maybe 1 or 2 percent are actually what I would consider "hopefulls".

It gets depressing sometimes, but I know there's other things in life. But you see, making music is cheap. Working on cars isn't, going golfing costs money, airplanes; they cost money, this yacht, my kid's braces, they all cost money. Sorry for the gratuitous Vaughnism.

So here I am, living paycheck to paycheck, in the middle of my musical failure time, trying to scratch by and do ok.

Slowly and bitterly I'm learning to appreciate money and learn how to really take care of it and nurture it and get by with spending the least possible amount on food for a week (which should take care of my other current gripe; my weight) and one of these days, I'll have money, I'll know what to do with it, and I'll appreciate it.

And I'll buy some zebra cakes, then go run to work them off. You have to trade money for zebra cakes, you have to trade running for fat. No worries. It's just the way the market works.

Time to go make time.