Just more meaningless banter.

I am doing something tonight that I haven't ever done. I am going to fall asleep listening to Handel and leaving one window partly open so I can hear the peaceful and gentle rumble of an October thunderstorm. I can honestly say that I have not had the pleasure of doing this before.

Tonight, I have tried many times to let myself relax, and thanks to one situation or another, it hasn't happened, until I found myself grabbing my laptop to share my thoughts with both of you who read this blog. It was at that moment that I realized that I was listening to classical music (yes, by choice), and that it was strangely thundering. So I turned off my light, turned on my lappy, and went to work relaxing (paradoxical eh?).

Sometimes I am glad that I don't write screenplays. You see, I get these great ideas that in my own head sound like they would make great movies, and then I picture myself in the movie theater, watching Kevin Costner play the main character, and I realize that, as a screenwriter, I think I would just suck. I'm glad I don't do that.

Though I do have a problem with writing. I like to do it all to much, and I like to do it all too differently. I mean, if you're reading this blog, chances are that you have seen how many blogs I have maintained in just the last few months. I mean, come on. At the moment I regularly fill up my own website, as well as three blogger.com accounts, with a touch on xanga (which I'm seriously entertaining the thought of quitting all together).

I like to write. I love to write about how I'm feeling, I love to write about storyline ideas that pop into my head, and I love to write poetically.

And then I find myself babbling whilst I type, laying my head down on my pillow, not even watching the screen, and still catching ninety percent of all my typographical mistakes. I truly am too much of a geek for my own good.

Well, it's bed time, and I'm in bed, but I'm not asleep. It's like laying in bed naked on your wedding night without doing anything. It just isn't right. So, I'm going to go sleep.

o/